Man!! I just cannot imagine!! How God wants to teach you some stuff in a different way!! hAaha.. Okay, let me just share with you how God teach me to step out of my comfort zone!!
Yesterday, i was suppose to have meeting at Central, is like at Clarke Quay.. So i thouht i can hitch a ride from my goddad.. Then after a few smses, i realise that he is not heading there after work!! But he is heading Vivo!! man!! So he told me he will send me go train station, so in my heart i was thinking to myself that: huh?! I got to travel down from Vivo to Central myself?!! And frankly speaking, i WAS not willing! So finally, its time to go off!! Went to his car, then to my horror!! I then realise he is going home to pick my god-mum first!! And he can only drop me at the train station that is near my office!! I nearly fainted on the spot!! and at that very moment the thought of not attending the meeting came right into my mind!! So after getting off, i was not feeling good!! Its true man! I just felt so ARGH!!!
Then told myself, i gave my word to be there le, so i better get going! Then no choice but took a train down!! And on my way down, i was still feeling horrible, terrible!! And right at the point of time, God said:' Nat, you got to step out of your own comfort zone!! In every aspect of your life!!" I really felt like!! Argh! But yet in my heart i was very convicted! And God's presence was just there, i nearly teared!! So then i 'control' and just quietly Thank God that He was there to remind me...
And today!! I also SMS my god-dad at like 5++pm to ask him if can send my home... Agreed. And i guess he was busy, he only told me like he was ready at like 615pm? But i was long ready!! So when he message like Lets go, i was about to step out of my office door le.. THEN my operation manager was like!! Nat, you leaving le ar? Can help me fax something first?! I was like!! Erm... Okay... So i thought ONLY 1 piece, hurry do, finish in like 3mins!! After everything, he told me hey still got 1 more! I was like! Huh!! Why dont tell me all at 1 go!! Argh!! So i hurry! Send like 8 mins to do! And BEST thing was that i dont have my phone with me. Cannot call or sms to inform... By the time, i'm done, i run down and to realise that my god-dad went off le!! I was hoping mad!! I mean! How can such things happened!! ARgh! And as i was talking to Enyun about other things, i heard the Holy Spirit reminding:' Nat, step out of your comfort zone... And the voice was soft and gentle!! And at that point of time, i was whining to my god-dad... And immediately!! It just came as a revelation!!
I mean in some areas of my life, i have been so comfortable and i really dont want to move. Then when this issue came, it really hit me hard! It just came to tell me that when you want to step out of your comfort zone, its NEVER easy!! Yet you cannot rely on your own strength to do it! You need Him!! Then i mean at that very point of time, i can feel that i'm like crucifying my flesh!! and it was really hurting man!! But as i was telling Enyun about it, i just felt like God is also at work at that point of time, like He never leave me alone to face that 'trial'. I mean even though i was not feeling tha fantastic, but i still feel that God is GOod! haha.. And man!! I just love Him more!!
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