10th day of motherhood

Entering into the 10th day of motherhood. Its a bittersweet feeling.

I miss days where i am all alone, just I, ME, MYSELF.

After getting married, another person entered into my life. It became, I, Him and Us.

Now with the baby that comes along, it is now, She, Him and I.

The sequence now all are different. Not like the past anymore.

Now, life revolves around, pumping, and more pumping.

This is because i still have the confinement lady with me. Very soon, it will be all about changing diaper, pumping, feeding, bathing and more changing.

Honestly, how's life as a mother.

The whole thing has yet to sink in apart from the breastfeeding. The painful process.

I dont get to see baby as often as many people claim ownership of her. I dont get to carry her as much, as im always told that i need more rest, i cant carry load, so on and so forth.

Now that i am still in confinement, i would rather go through the pain of labour then confinement.

At least, i still have epidural to numb the pain. But in confinement, i got to endure so many things.

The logic of no washing hair, minimal bathing, only using boiled water to wash hand, eating all the gingery food. And worse, the constant war path of 2 elderly ladies.

I always wonder, is there a short cut to confinement? Just like epidural.

I haven found an answer to this.

8th day of motherhood

I find it quite contradicting.

It seems like it was just yesterday that i took the pregnancy test and found out that i was pregnant. And it seems just yesterday that i deliver Nellie in Mount A.

As i was carrying her (the preggie me), i cant wait to get her out so that i can have an easier time with my body.

Now that she is out, i wish she is back in, reason being, i miss her kicking, somersaults and all her movements. I miss the gynae appointments where doc John would tell me her progress, tell me how is she and all. I miss the time when i take train and people will give up seat for me.

Now that she is out, i kinda miss all the above, but yet at the same time, i dont mind just staring at her, looking at her angelic face, the smiles that she carries in her sleep, the frowns that she will give when we disturb her. The many things that she does, may it be her reflex or her genuine expressions, i really dont mind just staring at her the whole day.

Life is no more the same.

Today is Nellie's 8th day into the world and i simply adore her to the max. Yet on the other hand, i miss life previously to the max.

Princess Nellies' Birth Story

Our Little princess arrived!

Finally after much anticipation and waiting, she finally come and say Hi to the world on 6 Apr 2013!!

How did it all happened?

Honestly, to me, its much of expected yet unexpected.

Just days before, i was still telling people that for all we know, after visiting gynae on sat, doctor would announce to us that i have dilated and need to deliver. Otherwise, its a case where i feel strong contractions, and ended up in hospital.

However, what i expected happen only half way.

I was feeling weird on Friday night, there were mild contractions, however, i think my skin was too thick to feel much, i brush off all the contractions as broxton hicks, in another word, its fake contractions.

On sat morning, i did everything as usual and even told my Mother in Law that after visiting gynae, we will need to go and get some stuff at chinatown before heading home. We all agreed.

I was early for my appointment, and at the same time i was required to do this fetus heart monitoring. While doing, i felt some tightening of my tummy, but never once did it cross my mind that its a contraction, since it happened so many times.

Jackie the nurse came and see me, told me i was having contractions, but i was just simply ignoring cause i didnt want to kick a big fuss.

We went to see Doc John, and lo and behold, Doc John told me i was having contraction 1 in every 10 mins. Which means it might be labour. So he said he wanted to check if i dilated, went and check and to my surprise, i was 4cm dilated! Yet i did not feel a single thing! He gave instruction that i need to admit to the hospital NOW.

My jaw dropped all the way to the floor.

Just as i thought i was thinking too much, there come the news that i'm in labour. My MIL who was with us the whole time of cos could not contain her joy, called everyone and announce that im going in to the hospital to give birth.

I on the other hand was still trying to think straight. So i told YY to send all of us home first, while i bathe and they take their lunch. We reached home, i quickly pack, check all the things that we required are there and off we go to Mount Alvernia!


Time check: 1pm

Upon arrival, the nurses check me in to the delivery suite and gave me care advises and instructions on what i need to know. And i was early, Doc John instructed the hospital to provide lunch for me! Which is my last meal till God knows when! Feast for the day for me!

Time passed, 4 hours gone. Dr John came. He told me i was still at 4 - 5 cm dilation! And he is gonna speed things up by breaking the water bag! And induce baby to come out at the same time. After him doing that, lo and behold, contractions came in waves. And more intense. yet to the nurses, its not enough.

Now its 5pm, i was still not dilating as what i expected. I was in pain, manageable i would say.

YY went to have his dinner while i on the other hand in pain!! How awesome is this!

By the time at 710pm, i could not take it anymore, i relented to having epidural, it was such a heaven on earth feeling when the epidural kicks in!

I still remember vivdly, asking YY, now that i am in pain, whats next.

Finally, after epidural, contractions sped up, i dilated another 3 cm within 1 hour! I should have done this long time ago! Yet at the same time, i was running a fever. A sign that i need be under closer supervision. Doc gave instructions to take panadol and since i was on antibiotic drip, i should be fine.

And due to the low dosage of epidural that the doc gave, i could feel the pressure and contactions when i was 9cm dilated! You can imagine those who went through without epidural! I literally had to beg the nurses to help me to increase the dosage! And so, at 9pm, they increase the dose! By 10pm, i was fully dilated! Well done! However, the epidural was so in its effect, i lost the feeling to push and got scoldings from the midwifes. How well done can this be!

I remember they told me to push, and i pushed! But nothing happened, and i heard Dr John mentioned that i cannot make it, cause baby's heartbeat was dropping and he got to help me to get her out ASAP! And so in the end they sucked her out!

At 2221 hours, Baby Nellie came into the world!

The big thing!

Almost 1 year into marriage life.

Life has been awesome!

And now the time to break the news! I'm (as of today) 5 months pregnant!!

Some said i concealed well, some said it was not obvious. Others were guessing but didnt know how to pop the question.

The first time when i saw this!

I finally understood whats the meaning of crying and laughing at the same time, and that kind of joy.














Entering into the 5th month or to put it more accurately, its 21 weeks, and the doctor confirmed its a girl!

We have 1 happy and 1 sad soul!

Yeo Yi is upset cos its not a boy. Aaron is happy cos he is taking her as his God-daughter!

Looking forward to talk about baby again!