Went for a Connect group prayer meeting before that. I really thank God for making that arrangement for me to go for both the meetings. Somehow God impresses me alot in each meeting.
During the prayer meeting, Man, i really think i need more of God! I seriously cant do without Him! Even to grow my connect group. I need growth! But growth must start from me. If there is no growth in me, how can i expect my people to grow. That goes the same for my ministry!! Yes! I need to work on that!
After prayer meet, thanks to some kind hearted soul who sent me to expo. I mean otherwise i will never reach on time. Anyway, during the group meeting, 85 shared something that really touches my heart!
He shared about Mother Teressa. During her period of ministry. In one of her journal, She wrote that many times she does not felt the Presence of God and is unsure what she is doing is it right. But she wrote that 'no matter what happen, she refused Him nothing, and will continue to love Him (God), as though He was never been loved before'
This touches me alot. Many times when we 'work' on our ministry, what is the exact motive behind? Are we for ourselves or for God? Many times, we grew weary and tired, burned out. But did we still love God as though He was never been loved before? Is our passion still as strong? Or are we in our comfort zone. Waiting by the premise for the promise?
I dont know, but i was very much reminded when Roger first offered me the chance to rise up. Offered me the chance to do more for the group and do more for the ministry. That leads me to be able to serve my CUs and ACUs. That gets me to be in 'the 12'. And to where i am today. Without Roger's belief in me. Believe that i can do more then i am. Of cos with 83's guidance, i dont think i can come to where i am today. Sometimes, i really thank God for everything. Though at times, when i dont feel God, i do question, am i doing the right thing. But still for everything that happen, it happened for a reason!!
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