Nellie's Hospitalization

As the title says it all, Nellie was admitted to the hospital for the first time due to an illness.

This experience was really not for the faint hearted.

She was down with a fever since 14 Mar, but this fever only will rise when she is sleeping, and during the day, she is still as active, however she was also having quite a bit of dry cough. So it didnt occurred to me to send her to see a doc, and not to mention, she just seen a doc about 10 days ago, concerning her bronchitis, which already cost us a bomb.

So we or rather I was trying to be the doctor at home and tried to self medicate her. However, after taking few days of cough syrup, completing 1 bottle, she was not improving, in fact it was kind of worsening. So came Mon, we kept her at home, and she skip school!

Tue came, her fever was not going away, she was coughing more regularly. We were then deciding to send her back to the same PD, go to a new GP (bearing in mind that the PD visit already blow us away), or just head down to Mount A and admit her since she was not recovering.

After much consideration, we decide to head down to Mount A. And we went somewhere in the evening after dinner. Nellie was still as active. We saw the doc at the 24hrs clinic and he told me, it was nothing serious, just a mere upper respiratory infection, it doesn't warrant an admission, nonetheless, i insist and so she was admitted. I thank God we admitted her and sought a 2nd opinion. The PD came, and we were told that she was actually having a chest infection and requires her to be on antibiotics, as well as to conduct Xrays and blood test to further confirm what was exactly bothering her. It was closed to 10pm when we were sent to the ward, and close to 12am after all the procedures. My heart was so wretched when we heard her loud cries when the doctor inserted the cannula.We were seriously worn out.

During the night, as much as i guess that she probably not going to sleep well, at 2am, a patient that finished operation was wheeled in, lo and behold, the porter actually bumped unto our bed. And i was up. Shortly not long later, someone in the next bed, woke up crying, and so does my poor princess.

Next morning came, we were sent down to complete the xrays. And that afternoon, the results were back. The films showed that my poor princess' lungs were somehow filled with phlegm. And she is requires to stay for at least 4 days to complete her treatment. That was only a Tuesday.

And fast forward, we were finally discharged on Sat. And the princess gets to go home to her toys and i get to go back to my bed! Like finally!

But the story doesn't just there.

On Mon, when we went back for review, the poor girl caught a new virus, and there we go again, back to the hospital.

Shortly after settling down in the hospital, she began to start running high fever. There goes her appetite. And there goes my sleep.

She was once again, given the drips and various treatments, but as we were about to discharge, she was down with stomach flu.

All in all, she was warded for 11 days. or even more. I lost count.

Definitely not for faint hearted parents!

Con of being a SAHM

 

  

Been away from this space for an extremely long time.

Not that i am lazy, but Nellie, ahem doesnt grant me time alone, much less, typing away in peace.

Today would marks my 9th month as a SAHM. Honestly, as much as my entire being would like to say that i enjoyed being one, there are days i just hated disliked being one.

WHY?

As much as there are many reasons that many mothers out there would like to be a SAHM, some reasons that we overlooked are:


1.       There is nothing to look forward to. Why do I say so? By right we look forward to seeing our kids meeting their development milestones. And yes, at the start, you really do. Witnessing the first time they took their first crawl, first steps, first feeding and etc. There will be a time that they dont really have anything to achieve. I mean, that BIG thing for them. So every single day would be very mundane.

2.      You got no where to go, and also because of the lack of income, you cant be heading out every single day. So the only place you hang out the most is your house, your bedroom.

3.      Some painful days. For me, my most painful days are when Nellie hits her teething period. Oh, seriously. Each time she is to have some pearly white ones coming out, its alaways 4 at a go. Trust me, 4 at a go is a KILLER! She would refuse food, refuse sleep, refuse water, refuse milk and the list can go on. And all she does is CRY, wanting to be carried. I am no fan of teething process. And this would usually last up till a week. Just me and a crying baby with no help is no joke at all.

4.      Nellie gets so attached to me, that i cant even go toilet in PEACE. The moment i close the door, bam! The crying starts. And must less to say, leaving her at home and i head out to recharge myself, she would be crying as though i have just abandon her. That makes going out tough as well as the person caring for the baby tough.

The list can go on.

But there are really some nice reasons that you will forgo everything and just want to be with our little ones. Which i am not listing here.

Anyway, i am still gonna continue to be a SAHM for some reasons. I pray that God maintains my sanity!

Till i get the chance to blog again! Ending off with peektures of the princess.

Life today!

2 months into the brand new year and 3 months into me being a SAHM! How times flies!

How's life, you may ask.

To me, it has its pros and cons so far. I enjoy staying at home and spending the time with my little princess, however, i do miss dressing up and working in the workforce dealing with adults.

Staying home allows me to see the progress Nellie has make thus far, her first standing up, her steps, in short, her first major milestones in life.

However, facingg her 24/7 is not an easy feat. There will be days i totally dont understand what she wants. And there will be days where she crawls all over the house and ranksack anything and everything that is within her sight. That really make me miss working at times.

Of cos, i definitely dont miss waking up early for work! Thats something i totally dont miss at all! Haha!

Now Nellie is into her 10th month, and pretty soon, we are all gonna celebrate her BIG ONE! It kinds excites me thinking how to make it special for her, yet, keeping it within budget! This day last year, marks a brand new chapter for us and something that has no more turning back! Its kinda bittersweet feeling for me!

The SECOND one....

A question that many will ask.

"When are you having a second one?"

Now that i have one.

My honest answer. I dont know if i am able to cope with a 2nd kid. Nellie is an easy baby since birth. She hardly fuss, she latched well, she eats well and she is generally a friendly baby.

However, as she grows, her activeness is keeping all my willingness to have a 2nd one at bay. I literally had to drop everything that i am doing jus to make sure she doesnt open up the drawer and ransack everything out.

Apart from that, i always have these thoughts.

The positive one is the world is so harsh, by having another child, believing that the child is here to change the world.

The negative thought is, knowing that the world is so harsh, why bring the child into this world and participate in the rat race.

I am not keen nor interested to fulfil what the government says. But there is also one nagging thought, if we really were to have just Nellie alone, next time she will have to face the world herself. Literally.

No one will be able to share the things that she goes through. And so on and so forth.

Sigh. I believe these are some nagging thoughts of many young couples weighing down their mind before planning to have a kid. Even a second one.

Nellie

Time flies. 6 Month and 2 weeks now.

My princess has grown older, bigger and much more active.

In the last 2 weeks, perhaps due to teething, Nellie has not been sleeping well. Not been easy. Wants to be cuddled all day long.

And when i am in the mist of doing all i can to calm her down, some times I just felt so ARGHHHH. Why am i going through such! Why cant she be cooperating and JUST GO TO SLEEP!

And when the new day arrives, looking at her, will erase all the 'sufferings' she put on me the day before.

Looking at the photos also reminds me that Nellie is growing up very fast! I cant pause/ stop/ adjsut the time backwards. I got to treasure each and every single day i have with her.

She is indeed my little princess, and i simply love her loads! Close to idolizing her already!!

And not to forget, Nellie reaches another milestone in life! She is uttering words!

Mum mum! Is all she knows now!

Nellie at 6 month

In a wink of an eye, I'm back at the workforce for a good 2 months! Which also means, our little princess is now 6 month old!

These 2 months is certainly not easy.

The many disagreements we had with the in laws in parenting methods, the shuffling back and forth in caring for the princess and many more.

And i really cant bear to leave her behind as i go to work.

Honestly, the thought of her spending so much time with the granny makes my heart feel so 'jealous'.

I wish i could stay behind and care for her. But i know i cant.

This 2 months also make me treasure all the time spent with Nellie.

The outing trips to the swimming pool, the trips to church and the many places that she followed us to.

As much as we want to have time to ourselves alone, but honestly, we cant bear to just leave her behind and continue with our activities.

As i browse through the photos i cant help but to thank God for such a smiley and happy baby! A baby that will pull the heartstring of everyone!

I pray that Nellie will continue to grow up, bold, not afraid of strangers, smiley, filled with the joy of the lord! And every single day, growing up knowing and loving Jesus!

Returning to work!

As my maternity drawing to an end, i really felt so dread going back to work.

Before Nellie comes along, after a long break, i would feel so excited that I'm FINALLY going back to work. Be it a 3 days leave or a 5 days long weekend!

However, giving me a total of 4 months maternity leave makes me so bonded to my little one! I cant bear to leave her behind while i head back to work! And the thought of it already make me misses her so much!

How i wish, my workplace have a nursery where there are helpers to take care of our little one. Allowing us to bring them there, and giving them a hug when we need some booster during any part of the day!

Unfortunately, such privilege is not happening for me.

This full 4 months makes me feel so blessed!

Nellie is such an easy baby since the day she arrived in this world. She is so friendly, she allowed anyone and everyone to carry and play with her! And always flashing that wide smile of hers to everyone! Yes, to even strangers!

And she was born with a whole head full of hair! Which people envied!

She doesnt fuss or cry even when she is hungry, she will let out 2 tiny cries to indicate she needs food! That makes it so easy to bring her out on shopping trips and dining at restaurant!

Nellie starts sleeping through the night at 8 weeks old! That leaves me with plenty of rest and undisturbed sleep through the night too!

Having said so much, now that i'm supposed to go back to work, and i really cant bear to leave her at home! I will definitely miss the time where i bathe her, feed her, coo with her when she is awake!

With all these 'benefits', i really dont mind being a SAHM!